Father Damien

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4th of Saun, Arc 716

His eyes fluttered open, the man gauging his surroundings slowly as he 'awoke', though not to the real world. Rather he had come unknowingly to the false world of dreams. The bed was recognizable - this was his room in the castle of Sabaissant, in the grand palace that House Venora had built to display their emenence. His blanket was comprised of silken patterns; roses, swords, hearts and minds. Somehow though all seemed somewhat distorted in its own way . . . faint. Shadowed. Like everything had been set aside and his focal viewpoint was the only thing that maintained clarity. In the corner of his eye though was a blur that distinguished itself from others. It was the smiling face of a man, one he held dear to his heart.

"Damien," he called him. The Bishop of Yaralon, Priest of Ymiden. He'd called himself the 'Forgiver,' and even the 'Redeemer' in life. And how he'd redeemed Alistair, forgiven him, and allotted him with the chance to live a suitable life where he needn't feel shame. Shame for enjoying the morbidity of Necromancy, nor for lacking in basic human empathy, nor for lusting for those who shared his sex. Damien had redeemed him indeed, and in their time together he'd climbed from a miserable and angry runt to someone who understood - for the first time - the concept of humanity, of love. And for some reason he was here, in his room, watching him from the corner. Leaning against his closet - ironically where Alistair kept his minions.

"Hello, Lord Venora," he replied. The man took a seat on the bed, and Alistair rose from his sheets. He wore trousers despite the night, as they were thin and thus comfortable. He always possessed relative modesty, not much the type to sleep nudely like his brother or a certain cousin of his.

"What are you doing here?" The nobleman asked, rubbing his eyes. He felt oddly nervous; uncomfortable. Something about Damien felt different. Different how? He did not know. "I am here to see you, clearly," the man said. He retained his beginner level sarcasm. "Oh," Alistair replied. "Well uh, hello. Nice to see you, I think. Not sure of the legality of invading my room in the night and prowling my bedside, but I suppose there's lots that you and I do that are not quite legal." He smirked, and Damien could only laugh. "True indeed," he replied to Alistair. "True indeed."

Alistair removed himself of his blanket, seating himself on the bed beside the Lich. He glanced at him and exhaled. "Your breath smells when you wake," he told him. Alistair nodded. "So does everyone's."

There was silence. All was awkward. He didn't really quite understand what was going on, why he was here, why anything was happening. He figured if he waited long enough, silently enough, Damien would give him the answer he needed.
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"How long have we known each other for?" Damien asked. Alistair bit his lower lip. "Six years," he said. "Not all of it as master-apprentice. First I had to initiate myself into the Coven, deal with Ellasin, all of those other crazies. You only became a frequent visitor of mine about two years ago, I suppose. Twenty five arcs of age." That sounded accurate. Alistair had a pretty detailed memory, and so Damien trusted his words. He could barely recall such things, perhaps as a consequence of living for so long. It became hard to keep track - so many memories piled onto one another.

"And I, a hundred and three arcs of age," he said. Alistair shrugged. "Wish you were that mature," the man said. Damien chuckled. Alistair supposed this was the brilliant thing about being with Damien - every moment alongside him was spent with no stress, no turmoil, no fear, but rather a comfort and relaxation he hadn't known with anyone else. A peace. He could be who he really was, the apathetic Necromancer with a penchant for things others despised. And then there was that conversation eight days past, where Damien and Alistair shared a moment that he would always remember no matter how different his life became. Damien told Alistair he loved him, and Alistair loved him in return. It was merely as friends, as brothers even, but it was the first time the Necromancer had experienced what it meant to love. That warmness that consumed the heart; the joy that nothing else could rival. Oh yes indeed, he did love Damien. He always would, his dearest and perhaps only friend in this long life so filled with suffering.

The Necromancer sat quietly as he was lost in his thoughts. Yet again, he felt that warmth in his heart as he thought of Damien. The joy that came merely from him seating himself beside him. He thought of all of his jokes that had gone awry, all of his teasing and prattling about. He loved it all so dearly. And Damien loved him too. It was the first real bond he'd had. There were familial bonds like with Andraska and Theodore, but they existed due to blood rather than acceptance. Damien understood who Alistair was. That meant something - something dear.

"You know something, Alistair?" The man started. The Necromancer turned to him, staring quietly.

"I'm not the same man as I used to be." He looked up, to the ceiling. It was as if it opened to become the sky, and all within the room was flooded by the chilling air of the night. The cool breeze. "I used to think greatness was an objective reality, that glory was the aim of every life. I think deep in my heart, looming, was this thought. Humility as a Bishop in Yaralon was something I endured only to spare myself from the cruelness that dwelled inside of me. The men and women of that city were violent, and they sold their souls for coin. I swore to be different, and yet my mind wandered; shall I be glorious one day? Shall I be remembered? Perhaps even becoming a bishop was a result of my own narcissism. The priesthood should shame me now for where I have gone."

He looked to Alistair and asked: "Do you understand the struggle between good and evil now, young one?"
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The Venora blinked once. In this moment, he could feel the marvel of everything he'd learned coming together. What was the good that Damien had done? Everything, really - all of his efforts in redeeming others, in showing them the light. Guiding them along. He was a brilliant philosopher, and Alistair had even uncovered texts of his written works. They withstood the test of time. But the evil - the temptation, the unsureness, the fear. It was what led him to Ellasin, and to becoming a Lich. It allowed him to be corrupted.

Evil was desire.

It all made sense to him now, those words from Damien some time ago. You feel and want for nothing, and know not empathy. And yet in my eyes you are the greatest man I have ever known. By Damien's system of beliefs, Alistair's pure apathy - his sociopathy - exalted him in the eyes of the Lich. Perhaps it was the reason their bond had become so empowered throughout the years.

"Good is knowing the distinction between want and need," the apprentice said. And his master lowered his head, nodding yes. He brought up Alistair's hand and kissed him on the back of the palm. His eyes lit up and he grinned. "Evil is knowing only your own subjective reality, and not understanding or considering the gravity of others. You have been railing these ideas into my head for quite some time, though residually and slowly. You don't believe in the same sort of 'evil' as others do, correct? Even my murder of that man in Andaris was not evil. It was survival of the fittest."

He smirked. "The desire to live is not evil. Killing another to protect your own life is not evil. Evil manifests in senseless cruelty, or in the justification of all things based on your own faulty morality. You ponder greatly all things that you do, and everything that you are. It is why you are not evil. Instead . . . you . . . are good." The man moved closer and gave Alistair a tight embrace. The noble stared silently, his head lowered and pressed into Damien's shoulder.

"I am not," he corrected him. The man said nothing, merely allowing his apprentice to speak. "I am bad," he said. "Because . . ."

. . .

"I do not know the distinction of need and want, Father Damien. For I would say that I do not want you, but need you. More than you could ever give me. More than our lifetime could allow." The Lich pulled back and stared into the eyes of his student. Alistair frowned greatly; he looked as if he was a great disappointment. Like he'd failed. Like his repression had caught up to him and consumed him. For his entire life, he had held back his feelings and desires for others. But with Damien, they were different. They were strong. He loved him . . . and he wasn't sure how far that love went. It hurt him to think this way. It made him feel ashamed. But he did.

The Lich smiled faintly. "Is physical desire want, or need?" He asked his apprentice. The man answered instinctively, based on what he had learned. "It is want," he said. And so the Lich followed him with a further question: "Is emotional compulsion - feelings such as love - also want? Or something more?" And this trumped Alistair. Did one need love to survive? Love was not the ichor of blood, nor the necessary taste of an apple's flesh. It was not a bed to sleep on nor a place to call home. It was something different entirely. How could one claim that they needed it? He had known men and women both who had gone their entire lives without love.

His mother, surely, and his father too. They lived on, despite the hatred of one another. Even their children didn't really love them. But he supposed then that there was an argument to be made - of the difference of physical and emotional health. Kaleb and Willow, mother and father, were exceptionally unhappy. They lived in a state of what he called neurosis, and from what his grandmother had told him, this state of being came about only after they had developed such a resentment for one another. So did one need love? Was need merely physical requirements of sustainable life, or the emotional requirements that made for a joyous life? He responded by guess. It was the answer he was least likely to give to any random passerby, as Alistair claimed - and really it was quite true - to not understand love and regular human emotions. But with Damien these misunderstandings had a light cast upon them, and he could see more clearly.

"Yes," he responded. "Yes, I understand now."

. . .

"Love is need, Damien," he finally answered. "And so you must know - I need you."

He leaned in, as if for a kiss. But in that moment, the world around him tore apart, and the dream ended.
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Evil: Desire [/color]xxxxxx Good: Distinction of Need and Want
Love: Brotherhood [/color]xxxxxx Love: Need
Morals: Good and Evil [/color]xxxxxx
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I thought about this for a while but the point deduction on Structure is purely because at many points, I was genuinely confused over who was speaking, or who was doing certain actions. I love your use of description for the characters you control, so please keep doing that. Just as an example, I will paste: "And I, a hundred and three arcs of age," he said. Alistair shrugged. "Wish you were that mature," the man said. Damien chuckled. It took me too long to decide who “the man” is in this example. Perhaps it is your use of full stops which adds to the confusion..?

This was a really insightful look into the very psyche of a person. These are probably my favourite types of stories - where nothing ‘exciting happens’, but true self-discovery takes place. It was a genuine pleasure to read this and I feel compelled to have a look at your PC more closely, if only to learn more about Alistair and Damien. I feel like this was a teaser story for a book and now I must go and buy the book! A real pleasure. Thank you.


As you can see, I have provided feedback and reasoning behind my review. If you have any questions, comments or criticism about your review, feel free to send me a PM and we can discuss it.
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