Kali expected backlash after her outburst, almost steeled herself for it. Instead, the Biqaj watched her with a quiet sort of respectful tide pool look, the gold in his eyes noticeable even in the moonlit night. The Sev'ryn watched as Pash shrugged, though she'd merely made some offhand comment about something he had slight interest in. Watching as he raised the coin, she caught the silvery glow across his skin with a curious frown, blushing furiously at his unbridled talk of how she would have come to being in her own mother. This was not appropriate at all, yet she let him continue as she blinked the tears from her eyes. She listened silently, following the movement of the coin with her periwinkle gaze, jaw still tightly drawn. His words made sense, all of them, yet the brunette couldn't shake off the ingrained teachings of her Elders. It wasn't that simple.
Was it?
Crossing her arms the brunette looked away again as he spoke of her loss, chewing the side of her mouth thoughtfully and the anger ebbing slowly away with his logical commentary. She rubbed her arms, as though to ward herself from the conflicting thoughts running through her head she sighed heavily, feeling a sudden unfamiliar pang of home sickness at his reminder of just how far she was from home. It wasn't Desnind she missed, but her grandfather. There wasn't a time she could remember that they'd been so far apart for so long.
It was probably why she was so addled of late, the Sev'ryn thought. Again, she felt a surge of frustration at being sent away. Poppa needed her, or at least...maybe she needed him.
The Biqaj's final remarks reminded the young huntress of why she'd been sent away, and she looked up at him with an almost hurt expression. Quite suddenly, the Sev'ryn felt awfully alone. One hand moved to touch the tree tattoo on her sternum, anger dissipating like so much chaff caught in the wind and shoulders dropping slightly in defeat. Kali held his ever changing gaze for a trill or two, before looking up at the moon above them.
"You know, in Desnind the first full moon of the season is an honoured evening. We celebrate the changing of the season and give thanks to Moseke for all that it brings. The night is also an invitation for Sev'ryn to change, they can change a look or maybe...maybe something more." Looking down again, she focused on the filigree across her thumb, unable to meet Pash's gaze yet.
"I don't understand why I'm still looking. I've been waiting for a sign, a call. I feel like there's something there, waiting for me to find it, and I'm just stuck behind a wall searching for a door that will never appear. And I'm scared Pash." The traveling huntress admitted the words with a wince of shame, feeling the vulnerability of her admission starkly when it was spoken aloud.
"Truthfully, to step out of that...binding commitment to obey without question. That is as unnatural to me as...well...as a fish out of water if you can picture it. I've lived so long like that I'm not sure how to let go. It's like too much is going on in here," She tapped her forehead for a moment.
"And it terrifies me."
Was it?
Crossing her arms the brunette looked away again as he spoke of her loss, chewing the side of her mouth thoughtfully and the anger ebbing slowly away with his logical commentary. She rubbed her arms, as though to ward herself from the conflicting thoughts running through her head she sighed heavily, feeling a sudden unfamiliar pang of home sickness at his reminder of just how far she was from home. It wasn't Desnind she missed, but her grandfather. There wasn't a time she could remember that they'd been so far apart for so long.
It was probably why she was so addled of late, the Sev'ryn thought. Again, she felt a surge of frustration at being sent away. Poppa needed her, or at least...maybe she needed him.
The Biqaj's final remarks reminded the young huntress of why she'd been sent away, and she looked up at him with an almost hurt expression. Quite suddenly, the Sev'ryn felt awfully alone. One hand moved to touch the tree tattoo on her sternum, anger dissipating like so much chaff caught in the wind and shoulders dropping slightly in defeat. Kali held his ever changing gaze for a trill or two, before looking up at the moon above them.
"You know, in Desnind the first full moon of the season is an honoured evening. We celebrate the changing of the season and give thanks to Moseke for all that it brings. The night is also an invitation for Sev'ryn to change, they can change a look or maybe...maybe something more." Looking down again, she focused on the filigree across her thumb, unable to meet Pash's gaze yet.
"I don't understand why I'm still looking. I've been waiting for a sign, a call. I feel like there's something there, waiting for me to find it, and I'm just stuck behind a wall searching for a door that will never appear. And I'm scared Pash." The traveling huntress admitted the words with a wince of shame, feeling the vulnerability of her admission starkly when it was spoken aloud.
"Truthfully, to step out of that...binding commitment to obey without question. That is as unnatural to me as...well...as a fish out of water if you can picture it. I've lived so long like that I'm not sure how to let go. It's like too much is going on in here," She tapped her forehead for a moment.
"And it terrifies me."

