10th Ymiden
Elyna hadn’t slept the night of Malcolm’s attack. Whatever it was. She’d worked to keep a feverish temperature down with the use of a cloth and a cool bowl of water. Wiping the sweat from his face, chest and arms and with the windows opened ajar, just enough for the air to circulate without letting in the rain. Elsie had crawled out of her bed, disturbed by the thunder and lightning and joined them in their bedroom. Finally, the skyrider realised that she succumbed to sleep and dozed off on the chair, with Elsie napping against her. The next morning there had been tears of relief when Malcolm awoke, disorientated.
It was almost an Arc to the trial that the noblewoman had nursed him to health, after his battle in the arena. This felt all too similar as she kept busy ensuring that he had something to drink and light meals to eat. She’d called for a healer, uncertain of what had gone wrong the night before. No matter the verdict though, it was clear that the stress of their relationship and the strain and tension he buried, was taking its toll on the mortalborn son of Vri. Anna had arrived to collect the children as Elyna was due to return to the Skyriders.
Relieved of two pressing responsibilities, Elyna had spent the day with Malcolm instead. Quietly sewing beside the bed as he rested. Elsie was always outgrowing her clothes and the young woman had drawn out a new pattern ready for warmer weather. The outline of a gown with capped sleeves was spread over the bedroom floor as she worked. Bowed over the soft linen, with the fire burning downstairs and the rain pelting the window, the skyrider lost track of time. She traced out the shape of the dress before adjusting the width of the sleeves. They would cover the shoulders to stop any burning, but would stop part way down the girl’s arm to keep her cool. Elyna also kept the sleeves wide in the pattern so that the material would hang loose against Elsie’s skin; without restricting her movements. It was a light fabric that would keep her cool, a linen with a loose weave. It hadn’t been an expensive fabric, which was a bonus, considering how quickly Elsie went through clothes and the toddler’s rough treatment of them. It was also a vivid green, summery for the hot cycle and able to hide the stains that were sure to be ground into it.
Between drawing out the pattern and cutting it out, Elyna ensured Malcolm was comfortable and spoke to him. Careful to be attentive and not cause an argument. He needed to rest and he needed to recover. Thinking about the night before made her own heart race and she felt as though she moved in a dream. Despite her careful attention, Elyna had to draw out the pattern for the dress three times in an attempt to get it right. Even then, she realised too late that she’d cut it straight to the weave of the fabric. Having the fabric at an angle would have given it more flexibility, as it was, the dress would be suitable for Elsie, but it would have considerably less wear. A mistake she wouldn’t have made if she wasn’t so tired and distracted.
As a dutiful partner, she made fresh bread and stew for dinner and fed the children when they returned. Elise joined her beloved Dada for a cuddle before being taken to her own bed to sleep, and Luke, though he grumbled at first, settled down to sleep. With the house quiet and the fire burning low, the Skyrider tidied the house ready for the next day. She barely dared to sleep again, but pressed close to Malcolm and tried to doze. Frightened that if her attention slipped, she might lose him.
11th Ymiden
It was Elsie who woke her the next morning, padding into the room with a cautious smile.
“Story?” She demanded and climbed onto the bed. She knew her Dada was ill and so was careful, as she dropped down beside Elyna and peered at the slumbering man.
Elyna sat up, pulling the little girl tight towards her side, wrapping an arm around her.
“Do you have a story book?” She smothered a yawn before pushing her fingers through her hair.
Elsie nodded and produced a tattered piece of parchment.
Bleary-eyed, Elyna tried to smooth out the note, the paper was wet around the corners and missing a large chunk of text. She rubbed her face again, struggling to focus on the words, until her blood seemed to slow in her veins, heart pumping sluggishly.
“Elsie, where did you get this?” She tried to keep her voice low, even and not wake Malcolm.
“Vara,” Elsie snuggled up to her mother, “Vara gave me story.”
Elyna swallowed down the rising bile and pressed a kiss to her daughter’s head. Her eyes burnt beneath her lashes, air burnt in her lungs and stung on the way up. She dashed the sleeve of her shirt against her face, rough against her cheeks. She squeezed Elsie tight and shuffled, putting the child down beside her Father before standing. Bare-legged once more, Elyna tucked Elsie in and promised to bring her a new story to read with her Dada, and left.
The letter was clutched in her hand and the young woman descended into the hallway before she dropped onto the bottom step. She read the words slowly, carefully though she knew they would always be seared into her memory.
Malcolm,
Thoughts of your touch inspire the deepest fire within me, an arousal that begins in my groin and spreads out to the tips of fingers and toes. I often imagine what it would be like to feel those roughened, ink-stained hands against my skin, caressing my body in intimate ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------
taste the salt of your flesh on my tongue as it meanders up your neck and across your ear. How I long to utter sweet nothings into your ear as my hands traverse every inch of your flesh. I yearn for the night ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
-V
She could only imagine that V was Violet. Strange that she didn’t even consider it might be an old letter from Vanessa. Violet’s kiss and her attempt to drug Malcolm however, were forefront in her mind. There were large gaps in the paper that had been devoured by the puppy. Where had Vara found the note? The dog emerged from the living room and pushed a hard nose into Elyna’s hand, demanding attention. The skyrider closed her eyes, fussing the creature as her world came undone. No more tears, she promised herself. None, not one. No more tears for Malcolm Krome. She was his, her fate bound to him, whether he was faithful or not, husband or not. She would rather argue with Malcolm then live a life without him,
any life without him. Twice now she’d faced the prospect of his death, his loss. It was too much to bear. With Vara trying to lick her face, the young woman found herself bent with grief.
Beyond the front door, a bright day was dawning. All the grey storm clouds burnt off by a glorious sun. It was going to be a hot day and she listed the things she needed to do. Open the windows to let some air in, light the fire, boil water for tea. Feed Elsie and Luke before Anna collected them for the day. She’d go down to the barracks and collect work for herself as a skyrider…and then she would return to watch over Malcolm.
Elyna gathered herself, built the fire and burnt the poisoned letter. She made tea and returned to Malcolm with a cup to warm him. Then, as she had promised herself she would the young woman threw open the windows and let the breeze in. The curtains whispered against the window panes. She read to Elsie from the book Malcolm had made, changing some of the words to her Father’s Rahaki. She fed her daughter and son and made certain they were dressed for Anna’s arrival. She made arrangements for the woman to remain in the house as she left for the barracks.
Returning a break later, she kissed the children goodbye and they left to spend the day with their nurse in house Burhan. Having collected what felt like a mountain of paperwork from the barracks, Elyna promptly dumped it in a pile in the corner of Malcolm’s office. It could wait another day. She remained attentive to the mortalborn, though quieter than the trial before. With the sunlight streaming through the window she worked, pinning Elsie’s little dress with copper pins.
Elyna sat on the windowsill, legs bent at the knee and the sewing balanced on her lap as she worked. Neat and careful stitches joined the seams together, tough and suitable for the rough treatment of a toddler. Once she’d completed the first line of stitches, she went back over them to re-inforce the thread. Doubling up the stiches and ensuring that some of the toughest wear wouldn’t snap them easily. The words taunted her and she couldn’t help but wonder if there had been more than a kiss between Malcolm and Violet. She hadn’t found a date on the letter…but had it arrived in her absence. She felt sick, unable to eat and barely able to stomach the fruit tea’s she bought up to Malcolm, along with his notebook, pencil, reading material and anything he requested.
The silence was quiet and it was almost comfortable. Yet the woman felt as though she was living someone else’s life. Her needle danced across the fabric, concentrating on the shoulders and the underarms once more. Finally, the thread was snipped and tucked neatly away. Next she drew out a selection of embroidery threads and started stitching hares and tree’s along the middle of the dress, something to brighten the fabric. Little images that Elsie would delight in exploring.
The children returned for dinner, ate, were bathed and then settled back into bed once more. With the words of V’s letter seared into her mind, she found herself reluctant to return to their bed. Yet she curled up, with her back to the man and slept, fitful, with dreams to disturb her thoughts.
15th Ymiden
Elyna had started to rise with the sun. Taking the opportunity to perform some stretches in the garden and attempt some sit ups, muscles screaming at the memory of what they used to achieve. The trials were wearing on. In the mornings the children were collected by Anna and she would work from home, either bent over her paperwork, fingers pushed deep into her hair as she wrestled with the numbers and letters, or sewing. The door to the study open so that she could answer Malcolm when needed, or if she was stitching, she would take up her seat on the windowsill. Though she preferred to sew when she knew the man was asleep. Elsie’s dress was complete. Just in time, as the scorching weather seemed reluctant to pass.
This morning had been no different. Anna had collected the children earlier to take them to the Burhan house. Elyna had managed to have a bath and dressed in breaches cut at the knee and a loose shirt. Her clothes fit once more, any sign of the weight of childbearing stripped from her form. It would take time though, to regain the strength and muscle tone that she’d once taken for granted. Elyna braided her hair before twisting it up, off of her neck. The pot of water was boiling, hissing as the steam rose.
Upstairs and down, the windows were thrown open in the hopes of tempting in a breeze from the burning air beyond the house. From stormy weather to blistering sun, Elyna wasn’t sure what part of Ymiden she preferred. Her sewing was upstairs, yet she lingered in the kitchen. Sorting the cupboards and tidying, taking care to be quiet and leave Malcolm undisturbed. She wasn’t avoiding him, she promised herself. Yet it was hard to look at him and not see Violet tasting his skin. How could she raise such a subject…when the tension between them had caused such dire effects?
The door sounded and the woman blinked, startled. Barefoot she crossed the open plan living space and pulled the barrier open, peering around it. Violet, hair shining in the sun. She looked as though she’d been crying yet Elyna couldn’t find it in her heart or conscience to feel sorry for her. She studied the woman, silent for a moment as she took in the soft and sultry curves, and her pale blue eyes.
Elyna took a step to the side and gestured for Violet to enter, “Malcolm has been unwell. He is upstairs.”
Assuming the woman accepted the invitation, she climbed the stairs in her bare feet. Elyna padded across the hallway, past Elsie’s empty bedroom and to the room she shared with Malcolm and Luke, the door was open, curtains fussing in the light breeze. Beyond, the summer birds were singing in a nearby tree and the first flowers had started to bloom. The air was sweet and she gestured with the extension of her arm for Violet to enter the bedroom.
“I’ll make some tea,” she glanced at Violet and turned on her heel, unable to meet Malcolm’s gaze. She left the pair of Knights alone and descended back down the stairs.