55th Zi'da, 717
She'd been absolutely useless at the Venora charity gala, which she could kick herself for. Add to that the conversation that they'd had in the carriage on the way there and what Xander had said, or more precisely not said, and Celeste knew that she had some serious catching up to do. Yet, there was the whole thing of not being able to move, feeling rather as though she looked like the back end of a barge and about as attractive. Her swollen stomach was frankly ridiculous at this point and she'd suggested to Xander that it would make sense if she moved into her own room, her own bed. It gave him space, let him sleep and meant that they would both be more likely to rest had been her argument and she'd appeared to mean it, although she left the decision to him.
But, there was no doubting it, as her pregnancy progressed, Celeste pulled away from Xander more and more, in terms of any sort of physical contact. She didn't avoid him, far from it, but if they were alone together, there was distance between them and it had been a long time since she had been in any way comfortable with him seeing her in any state of undress. Just the thought of it was horrifying to the young Andaris, of him seeing her like this, it was too much. She knew what his reaction would be and so she protected them both and kept away from him. Yet, not a trial went by where Celeste didn't tell Xander she loved him and, any time the two of them could spend together, she wanted to.
However, to-trial they had arranged to do something together, as a family. Ala'ni had been asked for ages now, if she could learn to fight like Xander, and Celeste had resisted the idea. However, it was something that the little girl wanted and Celeste found it almost physically impossible to say no to her. So, they were meeting in the courtyard where once Xander had helped her with her training, when she had been worried about being flabby. Celeste bit back a chuckle at the irony. Having had breakfast together, she and Xander were making their way, slowly. Celeste couldn't do anything at any other speed, in truth. Still, she slipped her arm into his and smiled. "I'm sorry I'm so slow," she said, softly.
She looked at him and smiled, although her worry showed. "I think I'm going to get her a new tutor, soon, for general things, but Xander no one but you for this." She frowned slightly as she considered. "And we need to get our wills written, too, to include her in them. What if I die? I'm the one who adopted her and I have not done that." Women died in childbirth all the time and preparations needed to be made. Still, as though she realised what she was thinking and saying, she shook her head. "I'm sorry. I want her safe, she's lost so much and we're her parents." She rolled her eyes and for a moment looked much more like herself as she grinned at him. "Which apparently means you teaching her to hit things with stick."
But, there was no doubting it, as her pregnancy progressed, Celeste pulled away from Xander more and more, in terms of any sort of physical contact. She didn't avoid him, far from it, but if they were alone together, there was distance between them and it had been a long time since she had been in any way comfortable with him seeing her in any state of undress. Just the thought of it was horrifying to the young Andaris, of him seeing her like this, it was too much. She knew what his reaction would be and so she protected them both and kept away from him. Yet, not a trial went by where Celeste didn't tell Xander she loved him and, any time the two of them could spend together, she wanted to.
However, to-trial they had arranged to do something together, as a family. Ala'ni had been asked for ages now, if she could learn to fight like Xander, and Celeste had resisted the idea. However, it was something that the little girl wanted and Celeste found it almost physically impossible to say no to her. So, they were meeting in the courtyard where once Xander had helped her with her training, when she had been worried about being flabby. Celeste bit back a chuckle at the irony. Having had breakfast together, she and Xander were making their way, slowly. Celeste couldn't do anything at any other speed, in truth. Still, she slipped her arm into his and smiled. "I'm sorry I'm so slow," she said, softly.
She looked at him and smiled, although her worry showed. "I think I'm going to get her a new tutor, soon, for general things, but Xander no one but you for this." She frowned slightly as she considered. "And we need to get our wills written, too, to include her in them. What if I die? I'm the one who adopted her and I have not done that." Women died in childbirth all the time and preparations needed to be made. Still, as though she realised what she was thinking and saying, she shook her head. "I'm sorry. I want her safe, she's lost so much and we're her parents." She rolled her eyes and for a moment looked much more like herself as she grinned at him. "Which apparently means you teaching her to hit things with stick."



